letting go.

sitting in math, all these worries of my grades and these upcoming finals finally got to me. i put my head down to rest for awhile and then they fell. the tears i've been holding in all weekend. from all this stress. and all these troubles in my thoughts. i just couldnt handle it any more. uncontrollable streams of tears...i swear, i tried so hard not to cry....cuz i didnt really want to. not in the middle of math....but i couldnt help it. they just came pouring out. ten minutes later, the bell rang for the end of the period...and i pretty much ran to business to ask mrs. hale if i could go to the restroom to clean myself up. so as i passed through the hallway, squeezing through the crowd, i ran for the comfort of fresh air and the freedom to be alone. then i sat down against the wall and cried some more. they eventually stopped. i paced back and forth, just to breathe. i needed to relax. calming myself down i walk back into business, READY TO FACE THE REST OF THE WEEK. crying can be good for you sometimes. i felt better after letting go. it was like i had washed all the bad feelings out of me. sometimes, in times like these, when everything is your own fault, being alone to cry is relieving. and then, as my friends noticed my red eyes and my sniffing, they comforted me. which made me want to cry again...but this time cuz of happiness. sometimes a hug is all it takes. it's good to know who cares. sometimes, we all just need reassurance because of our insecurities of not knowing whether or not you still have people there who care....

thanks so so much. i truly appreciate it (: