mistakes.

mistakes. everyone makes them. it just sucks that i always make the same ones over and over again. i know i have probably already posted about this topic before...but this time, i caught myself while it was still early....before everything became worse. well. to be honest, you guys caught me. so thank you. so so much. i heard the whispers, i saw the looks...felt the tension...and then i realized what you thought....let me explain. there are just some things that i need to deal with on my own, or things will get worse. and believe me when i say it has nothing to do with any of you. it's just me. i am sorry i made you two feel that way. i didnt realize that i was, once again, doing what i have sworn myself not to do ever again (not after last year happened....) when i heard the whispers, when i saw the looks...i got scared. i didnt want my life to repeat itself. cuz if it did, this time would have been worse, times tenbillion. i dont know if you're understanding what i'm saying, cuz i know im kind of being vague right now, but just know this: i would never even think of such a thing as that...it kinda makes me laugh now. how did it come to that conclusion? i must be very misleading....i'm sorry. ahhh asjfkdl; what a mess. haha. sorry i'm so confusing...hahaha....