my shattered dreams.

scattered like the pages of a lost, unfinished story..RANT TIME!!
questions cloud my head with why, tears on my pillow as i cry... i have no place in this world. im so confused...is that all i am to you? but maybe...maybe it's just emotions, taking me over. caught up in sorrow, lost in the song. it's hard for me to understand. and as i'm sittin by the window, singing songs of love i cant help but question my own judgement, my own sanity. it really makes me wonder, all these things in my head. where do they come from? i think its just my insecurity, taking over me. it stings, like salt on an open wound. and then, all of a sudden i forget that i was upset. and really, they'll never realize; they dont know half of what i go through. and i feel so trapped within myself. and i dont think anyone can help me get out of this circle. the only person that can help me, i guess, is me. try is all we have to do, right? but then there's that saying "do or do not, there is n try." which do i believe? im tired of all this pretend. seems nothing ever changes and everything they say has no meaning; the lies in their eyes. and so i sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone. cuz honestly, im tired of wanting to care anymore. what kind of messed up world is this? where it hurts to care? makes no sense, but since when does life make any sense? sometimes i wanna let go, but then i keep holdin on. over and over again, like each time its new. but even after all the times, still i cant figure what went wrong.

hahah woah. ive always wanted to do that. its like a remix soundtrack or smthing. hahha iono. i was bored. and yeah. i dont think i want comments on this. lol.