clutch of my heart

"Invidia" - latin for Envy
"Envy, like a cold prison, benumbs and stupefies; and, conscious of its own impotence, folds its arms in despair." - Jeremy Collier

"Jealousy is the dragon in paradise; the hell of heaven; and the most bitter of the emotions because associated with the sweetest." ~A.R. Orage

"Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it's a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them." ~Jennifer James

^that last quote is such enlightening advice... so for some reason, the confession we did in english today made me so nervous. like my ears were burning and my hands were ice cold. i think mrs spencer knew too..haha cuz at the end she was like, "for those who took this seriously, and for some people this was difficult; to stand above everyone and confess their sin..." and then she looked at me. hahaha. oooh and during the day people kept asking me if my "E" stood for easy..HAHAHLMAO. WACK!