think.

it's not easy. living in a world you dont belong in. it's not easy. being surrounded by successful people. it's not easy. when you dont really count as one of them. it's not easy. when people think that youre sitting on your ass all day. it's not easy. when people dont realize that maybe im just stupid. it's not easy. being told all the time as if i dont do anything. it's not easy. being the only one who thinks that ive been trying. it's not easy. feeling so alone. it's not easy. when people think i dont care about anything. it's not easy. when people dont just accept that i suck. it's not easy. because i dont either, but what can i do now? it's not easy. trying to get out of this hole. it's not easy. when people think it's easy for me and that i am choosing not to care. it's not easy. when im so different from everyone else. it's not easy. when i fail even though i try. it's not easy. it's difficult. it's depressing.