too many questions.

did you ever really think about what makes a day good or bad? have you ever tried getting up, 5:00 in the morning saying, "today's gonna be a good day"??? how many times have you told yourself that, but in the end, everything was not as you had planned it? does that automatically make the day a bad day? what makes a bad day? bad grades? mad friends? lost communications? a lack of what you want? missing what you need? why is it that even as the day seems to follow your plans, you realize something's missing? or worse, that something's gone? how do you accept the interruptions of your planned day? how do you make yourself realize that what you want to come isnt going to? how do you let yourself know that you're being so unreasonable, so impatient, and so not what you want yourself to be? how how how? why why why? i just want to be relaxed and carefree. i ask myself, is that too much to ask for?