ready, set, GO.

i feel like exploding so here it goes!
i keep wanting to believe that yesterday will come again. but another part of me just wants to say, FORGET IT. anywaaaay. i just finished my essay. this is the first essay ive actually really tried on in sooo long. the counselors sent an email to my parents..i must be doing worse than i thought. and i already thought my grades were effed up. 'he' gave me another talk, a quick one this time. but he's right. i need to stop caring about the unnecessary things because right now, i need to prioritize myself.
so saturday night, my mom and my aunts were having a very deep conversation with my two older cousins about love and being in a relationship. poor ate..its her 2nd time getting heartbroken so painfully...her 2nd time getting so close to getting married too..she deserves the best and i pray for her. well that conversation my aunts and my cousins had was very insightful..some things they said: "you have to learn to love yourself before anyone else." "when you fall in love, or get into a relationship, you have to expect to get hurt sometimes." "you may feel like youd do everything for him, but dont ever forget to take care of yourself, too." and my personal favorite, "loving someone is being able to surpass bad times like this. if you survive through this, you know your love is strong." daaaang. my mom and my aunts say such clever things if you take the time to listen pass their fob accents and hard english. haha. anyway it was the funniest thing to me cuz the whole time they were having the conversation, i wanted to say things but i know they'd be like, wtheck. hahahaha. like i wanted to jump in and say, "but if its true love, you could feel all the pain in the world and nothing would change the way you feel. because in the end, just being with them is always worth it." hahahhaa imagine if i said that. they'd be like 'do you even know what you're talking about?' and what they dont know is that I DO...ahh time will come :] hahhahaa oh and a last thing, when we got home from the party, my mom asked me, "so rona, did you learn anything from that talk we had with lovely & donna?" and all i could do was look at her, smile, and walk away. hahaha.